So. The Kite-Runner. Kind of a downer, huh? And I only read the graphic novel version. But it certainly helped put the issue with Paul's sister into perspective, so...score one for a soul-debilitating glance how unthinkably awful life can be!
Christmas went well. It was really loud, and there was a lot of crowd-management involved. I was inclined to glaze off, thinking of the quiet Christmases of the household where I grew up, wondering idly what my adult life would be like now with two or three children instead of five, not-that-I'd-want-to-give-any-of-them-up, wait-which-would-you-be-willing-to-take-ha-ha.
Actually, I can tell you exactly what it would be like: I'd be sitting here writing about how Christmas went well, but how I'd been inclined to glaze off wondering what my adult life would be like now if we'd had those other children I'd wanted. There would probably be some mooning and some age-speculation ("Maybe one would have been 6 this year, and another would have been 4...").
One of my gifts from my parents was Million Little Mistakes by Jennifer McElhatton. I'd read Pretty Little Mistakes a couple of years ago, and although I had many little complaints about it, I got so into it that after reading through a dozen or so adventures, I ended up reading it methodically---making sure I followed every single choose-your-own-adventure path possible in the whole book. I've seen what happens if I go to college and then become a drug dealer; now let's go back to the beginning and see what happens if I get married and then become a waitress!
Hey, did you already figure out where I was going with this, you smarty? I do wish I could do my life like a choose-your-own adventure book. Not to SWITCH to something else, but just to see how things would have gone and then come back to my real life. I'd like to see what it really would be like to have two or three children; I'd also like to see what it would be like to have the half-dozen I'd had in mind. (Or no, I guess I wouldn't, since then I'd miss that baby when I went back to my real life.) (Well, maybe as long as we're counter-reality fantasizing, we could add a thing where we wouldn't be affected by that. It would be fun to just SEE other possible children and relationships, but without the heart-hurt afterward.) I'd like to go back and see what would have happened if I'd gotten a different degree: accounting or elementary ed or secondary ed or nursing instead of business. I'd like to see how things could have gone if I'd done more extracurriculars in high school, or made different friends. Maybe I'd want to see what would have happened if I'd stayed with my first marriage. I'd even try the path where I didn't go to college but instead got a real estate license and married my high school boyfriend, just for interest's sake.
If life was a choose-your-own-adventure book, which path would you re-do first? I think I'd start with the different degree, since "What will I do when all the kids are in school?" is currently heavy on my mind. But the "different guy" paths are perhaps more INTERESTING.
Shopping ideas for summer fun - Normally this time of year I’m buying a batch of Summer Survival Gear Treats. I like to buy a new CD for the driving back and forth to lessons and camp; a ...