Ug, I had a Mental Turmoil Morning, waking around 3:00 to pee and then lying in bed suffering from weary mental churning. The dumb thing was, a lot of it was OTHER PEOPLE'S mental churning, a rehashing of stories I inadvertently tap into via stressy Facebook statuses and stressy Twitter posts---or, and this drives me a little bonkers, stressy RE-posts and RE-tweets. I like to keep up on the stresses and frets of people I know, but not with the endless endless crank-it-to-11 RE-tweeted fights and indignations of strangers. One re-tweet to spread awareness of the issue for people who would want to know what's going on so they can get involved: SURE, of COURSE, I'm even GRATEFUL for that sometimes. But a constant re-tweet stream of EVERYTHING EVERYONE TWEETS ON THE TOPIC? No. NO.
I never know what to do in those situations when it's chronic, do you? I don't want to unfollow the re-tweeter, because I DO like THEM. But by following them, I'm also automatically following a bunch of other people I DON'T like and DON'T want to hear from, and/or hearing a ton about issues I don't want to be involved with and/or have a strongly opposite opinion on but don't want to argue/think about anymore. It's a problem.
So anyway, that was one of the mental churning categories. Another is one of those pointless, can't-do-anything-about-it ones, which is such a good use of sleep time. Our STUPID TOWN keeps voting for cuts in education expenses, and they toe the state line of Meeting Only the Absolute Minimum Requirements For Everything, which would already be annoying enough, except that this is the THIRD YEAR IN A ROW our school system has failed to pass state tests. But my GENIUS CO-RESIDENTS, most of whom are probably voting for education cuts on basis of "MY kids are already grown! Why should _I_ pay to educate other people's kids?" (that's right, I built that straw man right in front of you), keep voting every year for more cuts! because they don't see the connection! possibly because they were educated in this school system! And what I would like to know is, WHY IS THE CUTTING-EXPENSES OPTION ON THE BALLOT?? "Would you like to pay MORE in tax money, or LESS? Your choice! Check box."
I also kept mentally working on a post I'm trying to do about how a nightmare about needing to run for our lives made me feel so so so lucky that we can just...live in our house and keep our things there, and go shopping for things we need without fighting off other looters, and not have to spend our entire day foraging for enough food to keep our kids alive, and not have to get in a knife fight to get an antibiotic. I don't think the post is writeable, though. You know how you can get comfort by telling YOURSELF to be grateful that your life is so much better than if you had problems A, B, and/or C, but if someone ELSE tells that to you it's just about the most pineholish move ever, assuming as it does that only the most miserable and worst-off person in the entire universe is allowed to complain (and even THEY should feel lucky they're NOT DEAD)? So. That's the trouble with the post: even though I've spent two days so far feeling wonderful feelings of relief that we have electricity and don't have to reduce our belongings to what we can carry, it's hard to tell YOU about it without sounding insufferably preachy and pineholey. PineHOLY, as it were.
Gift ideas for an 8-year-old, part 2 of 2 - Last week I talked about the gifts we were getting/considering for Edward, who is turning 8 next month. This week it’s Elizabeth’s turn: not “girl gifts,” ...